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2013 coming already and about three month more i gonna be 20th teenagers. Yeah its hard to survive until this, because mostly teenagers tend to have bad influence from friends and many more. Syukur alhamdulillah i'm still in islam and bless by Him. In becoming 20 i found lot of my friends fall down because of bad influnce. And the most harmful things that i see in front of my eye is my own fren taking a drugs. This is all because of pressure from study. I know this is false, but i promise i will try to "slow talk" to him later. And since entering university life, smoking is a usual stuff which is you can see student taking a cigarate to release the stress.

For me, my 2012 have a bad start. I started this year with problem. My life at utp depends on my result. I just feel 50-50 this is all because of one subject call ODE-Ordinary Diffrential Equation. I just fail it before this and hopefully i will pass it. I give all my efford and strength only to stay at utp. I know life as a ungifted boy quite tough. Lot of my fren in utp didn't even study but they still manage 3.0 above. But me after all my sleep, energy that i have been sacrificed in just to achived 2.0 quite impossible . I just want my family proud.. Thats all... Is that still not bless? Why Allah... Why? What kind of test you want to give to me?